♣ Part I. BlackBerry.

What's BlackBerry? A smartphone. Who can use this device? People who need to connect 24/7/30 to email, instant messages, web browing, etc. Why? To "smoothing" their bussiness or need. But for everyone? No.

The strangest event in my life, currently, is now I'm using BlackBerry. I never really want to try it. I know I just will use SMS, phone, browser, and social media application (if available). BB has the features but it's more for bussinessman. I'm not.

Last weekend, I got a text from cousin. He offered me his (or his sister's?) BlackBerry Curve. So I texted him back, "No, thanks". Several moments later, I told my mom about that and she convinced me to take the offering. Because if I used the BlackBerry, my mom could use my Nokia C3 to replace her old cellphone. So that was the history.

Since the first day I use it, it pissed me off. Old contacts couldn't be deleted at once. I texted my (another) cousin and she said that I should delete it manually one by one. After I Google, apparently I could delete it at once with hand wipeheld. But that would delete everything in the BlackBerry. Bluetooth notebook didn't detect BB device. I couldn't send wallpapers and ringtone. Themes were completely boring. Design was so masculine. The alt keypad somehow looked like "drown". Uncomfortable for typing.

It's been the third day of using BlackBerry. A little bit surprised because I can say it's so far so good. I'm getting used to it. I've downloaded the BlackBerry Application World so that I can collect some nice themes and social media applications. I spend most of the time to "utak atik" its features. Tiring, indeed. My eyes are still sore and dry now.

Although I'm sure I'm still going to be unable 24/7/30 online, well, BlackBerry is not that bad. I like its ringtone. Sound good. I still don't like its theme, even with what I've downloaded from BlackBerry Applicaton World. But some are minimalist and better than its original themes, which I like. And of course, UberSocial. You don't feel like using BB for social media if you don't use UberSocial. It reminds me to Pavo.Me, a Java based application for Twitter, that has been deactivated due to Twitter API's new rules.

I wish the excitement doesn't end here. I wish my provider will lower its BlackBerry full package price so that it's more affordable. What else I could ask? I'm just a student. 

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♣ Versus myself.

To be honest, I've been being in a war with myself lately. From something simple like choosing outfit. Or decision of saving money. Or what I should do after my undergraduate thesis exams over. Or what movie I will watch. Or what music I will listen. I found myself taking decision A but ended up taking B. Saying I'm going to save money but ended up buying several stuffs the following day and calming myself, "That's okay. You're going to need these stuffs".

Sometimes I think I'm not human. Seeing the piles of stuffs that I've just bought and I'm going to be happy. Even window shopping makes me happy. There's happiness from going-choosing-paying stuffs with money. And use it, empty the bottles or plastic packs.

I know there's nothing wrong with "buying". It's normal. It's common thing. But I'm not being able to handle myself from saving. As someone who's unable to earn money for myself, it's frustrating. I rely on my mom or grandparents or auntie (they give me money sometimes) and they're okay. But I worry when/during/after I get/use my money. And I always tell myself to save some. But fail.

Hopefully I'll be having a job soon. Or maybe there'll be miracle which we are able to be a proof living of money rain.

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♣ Books.

I find myself craving for bloging more and more. But the fact I end up posting nothing. Who should be blame? The limit of my creativity to compose words or many kinds of distractions that I meet? Both of them maybe.

I'm curious if it's only my will to take a rest. Last week is my final undergraduate thesis exam and it's been very stressful for me due to some misunderstandings. I am still so disappointed, feel betrayed, so resentful. So lately I keep trying to entertain myself. Fortunately, I bought three novels on book sale on July. I also found some eBooks, randomly, because they're so "booming". So after I finish my exams, I am currently in process of reading The Adventure of the Christmas Pudding by Agatha Christie. It's only a collection of her short stories. Enough for warming up myself before reading another Agatha Christie books such as 4:50 from Paddington and The Mirror Crack'd from Side to Side. I have some eBooks too. There are Women by Charles Bukowski, Fifty Shades of Grey by E. L. James, and I Shall Wear Midnight and also Wintersmith by Terry Pratchett.

I would love to buy Terry Pratchett's printed books Tiffany Aching series*. There are four books, but for now I only find two books that have been published here, The Wee Free Men and A Hat Full of Sky. I love the characters. I love Tiffany Aching and Nac Mac Feegle. I've read the two of them and the first book, The Wee Free Men, is my favorite. It's a pity Atria, TWFM and AHFoS publisher, doesn't publish I Shall Wear Midnight and Wintersmith. Not sold well?

Fifty Shades of Grey.. have you heard about this book? Started from my habit to check celebrities news on JustJared. Then I keep seeing some news with this Fifty Shades of Grey. I ignored it at the first. What I knew: there's going to be a movie whose story comes from a novel. That's it. Then there's a news that my favorite actreess, Emma Watson, was rumoured to take a part too. It's followed by many comments, tell her to not to take a part. Then there're some Twitter user on my timeline who tweet about this too. Then enough! I couldn't ignore it anymore. I had to read this. But after Googling it, I gaped. It's clear I didn't expect the Google result. If you wanna know, Google it. Now I understand why Emma Watson's fans are worrying her. I've read few pages randomly. Me (worrying) too.

Last, Women by Charles Bukowski is a little similar. But it's softer. I think it's more acceptable. Don't mean to say that FSoG is not acceptable, but for me, as I am raised in east culture, although I can take it, I don't think I can take it 100%. I was online, then there was Twitter user who tweet a book review. It's Women review. Shortly, it entered on my list, waiting to be read. And that's how I have these books on my waiting list.

I love reading. At least for now. 

*there's something about printed books that I love, maybe because it's printed

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